will I float away, like that balloon that slipped from a clammy hand in a grocery store parking lot?
seeping in around the edges and
corrupting every thought
sometimes I wonder why people even ask. sometimes it’s even hard to talk to loved ones and friends about it, because you just end up feeling like you’re driving them away by being so… depressing.
okay, so, weirdest thing. I was sitting in my english class the other day, we were doing some kind of seminar thing and sitting in chair circles talking about this horrible book by William Faulkner called Light in August (if you haven’t read it, don’t). I suddenly looked down… and noticed that out of the seven girls in […]
wow. I guess I kind of forgot about this blog, for a long time. I should probably post a bunch of updates, even though nobody really cares. well, all of the various “boy situations” didn’t work out. I gave up on K. in December I started casually dating J, because as it turned out we […]
I just added a feedback form to my about page. if you ever have the desire to give feedback, suggestions (on how to deal with the problems I’m facing, for example), questions, requests (for topics you want me to talk about, for example, or for anything else), looking for advice (because apparently I’m great at […]
hey everybody. a lot’s happened since I last posted, and I apologize for not keeping you updated. K didn’t work out, so that possibility has been abandoned. I’ll keep the explanation very short. as it turns out, The Bitch broke up with him quite a while ago to go play with other people at college. […]
the wait may finally be over, folks. I talked to K today because I wanted to see him sometime soon, and he seemed really happy–much happier than he’s seemed in chat in a long time. he’s got a job he’s actually happy with, and his facebook status says single… he might have finally broken up […]
sometimes it feels like I have everything under control, but then other days I feel like I’m utterly lost and alone. why do I feel this way? I’m not alone… but I always feel so empty… it probably doesn’t help that everyone seems to want me but they don’t want me. and the few people that […]
so uh I mean I knew this before but I feel like it’s just repeatedly proven to me over and over I am really a bitch. seriously, how does anyone stand me? I’m a whiny, selfish, arrogant, insulting human being and sometimes I really don’t understand why anyone actually likes me or finds me to […]